Bright Spots | Week Twenty-Six

I haven’t felt much like writing about ordinary life since last Friday, when I was woken in the middle of the night by the radio we had left whistling, as the cheers of Brexit supporters and Farage’s self-satisfied drone interrupted my already broken dreams. For several days after, life felt anything but ordinary. And yet, as always, it continues. Identities have been abraded, the hopes of millions crushed, and yet I can’t help thinking – almost half of this country voted for this. Nobody can say what the future holds but if it is a divorce with the union, a return to isolationism, if it is Theresa May (who may look stately, given the chaos right now, but who is also vehemently anti-immigration and has in the past placed an economic value on love), then I do not see my future in this country. God knows where will take us, in that instance, but I know that I no longer wish to buy property, raise children or dedicate my life to a country and a government that has again shown its true colours in recent weeks. Yet life goes on: the tubes are full as ever, migrants (who contribute so much) are still here, and the Polish cultural centre in my borough that was vandalised last week still stands, now with a carpet of consolatory blooms beyond its welcoming doors. We still go to work and buy milk from the corner shop and read The Guardian, because it’s the only paper that seems to understand, and smile about trivial things. Despite the fact that, at its core, life feels very different and the future an unknown land. So, bright spots – after too many a week in absentia. Bright spots of the quotidian, that still – in spite of everything – are making me smile.

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+ street parties, hen parties, leaving-work parties
+ blousy peonies, spread in jars about the flat
+ the tomato plant, reaching for the sky
+ friendships blossoming
+ my grandparents’ garden
+ a delicious, impromptu dinner: butternut squash noodles, fried aubergine, halloumi and mint-laced peas
+ a Saturday in Cambridge with my dearest, oldest friends
+ deep conversations in the car – there’s something about driving that fosters it, isn’t there?
+ long soothing swims
+ a Thursday night feast with two dear old friends
+ a new job, that is more than I ever hoped for
+ and the updated commute that accompanies it – a walk through the park to begin every morning

What are you grateful for?

  • Oh this makes my heart sad 🙁 please know that the other half of the country didn’t want this and hate this whole mess and the narrow-minded-ness that caused it all and that Britain will now be labelled with <3 wish we could refresh the last week. I'm still (foolishly) hoping it won't actually happen.

    Come move to Scotland.

  • Amy

    It still all feels like a bad dream and so odd how in many ways life is still so unaffected by it. We had our refugee week event last Saturday and I went to the Challenging History conference in Cardiff where the referendum was a prominent topic. Both events at least reaffirmed to me that there are people who are trying to combat the negative ideas around immigration and refugees, it’s just so upsetting that certain people feel that the leave vote validates their racist and xenophobic beliefs. Living in Kent it was really crushing to see that basically the whole county voted leave, even in Canterbury we only got 49% voting to stay, and it’s rather tainted my love for the county. I work in a Museum that focuses on refugees in the 16th century, and it’s really sad to see that the arguments against refugees haven’t changed at all since then. Our future here has definitely been thrown into question, but we do have to keep focusing on the positives and if anything it just shows us that we have to work harder on spreading love and friendship and not give up on that.
    Thank you for sharing this, it’ a really lovely post and puts much of what I’ve been feeling into words, and your photos as always are beautiful!

  • I’m glad that you’ve been able to look at the things that make you happy despite the recent events. A swim sure sounds really good right now! I’ve been enjoying listening to podcasts during my commutes to and from work. I’m excited for this long-weekend; I’ll be staycationing at my friend’s apartment in the city -Audrey | Brunch at Audrey’s

  • We all have to cling to the bright spots in these terribly dark days, and keep putting one foot in front of the other. I’m still in shock too. I hate how it’s riven entire families and communities – I don’t know if I can forgive my grandpa for voting Leave, at least not straight away. If that’s yours tending to his tomato plants, though, he looks like a complete cutie! I’m so glad you’re enjoying your new job – I’d love to know all about it, and what it entails! xx